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Monday, October 01, 2007
Bioshocked
I can only play about 15 minutes of the game before it hangs, but that's okay. My heart probably couldn't take the sustained pressure.
As I walked through school from place to place today I couldn't help but think that this would be one of the last few times I'd be walking around the place with such... familiarity. Revision lessons during the holidays don't count, primarily because I probably won't be there in the first place, but also because if i do go I wouldn't be there on any... official capacity. Exams are excluded as well, for obvious reasons.
It wasn't really nostalgia that struck me as I walked around. I rarely appreciate such things until after they're gone. Taking lots of things for granted as usual. It's more of an... acute sense of ... some painful emotion that I can't seem to find the word for at the moment. Loss, perhaps? Or maybe longing...
The same kinda goes for the people that I hang around with in school now. There... arn't very many people that I can look at and not feel a sense of sadness of sorts in me. It's like... how characters in OTH looked really happy at the end of S4, despite all the shit they've been through with each other and such. You see them smiling and talking happily to one another, but you know there are still dark thoughts lurking below. They can't show it affects them because it'll just make them look petty, so they do the mature thing and pretend everything's okay. (Brooke is obviously still jealous of Peyton.)
You were right. She is using you. They all are.
I read today that the word school derives from the greek word for 'leisure', or something like that. In the purest sense of the word, I can't help but agree. Learning is always great. It's the angst that comes from the entire institution of learning that just kinda sucks.
2 more days of leisure. Better enjoy it while you can.
Moca wrote @ 5:20 PM
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