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Wednesday, March 28, 2007
My Single Biggest Regret
Is probably giving up DotA. At least that's one of the more frivolous things i can think of right now.
I played like... half a game in school today, and i realised just how much i miss it. Despite having to play a hero i never liked, not being able to finish the game and having Keefe on my team, it was nice to go back to something i havn't experienced for a long time. Easily the most fun half an hour of my life in quite awhile.
It's so much simpler to focus on light things and deal with the 'more important' stuff one at the time. Keeps you sane as well. Notice all the permanently/often angsty or emo people don't play computer games. See? Gaming is good for you.
Been indulging in nostalgia too much these last few days. Trying to will everything in my life to go back to a point in time in my life before, where it seemed easier, better. Stupid. Everything always seems better before. New things come, deal with it. Need to live what i preach. Haha.
Moca wrote @ 5:37 PM
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Monday, March 26, 2007
Sensitivity
Sinking into sweet uncertainty.
I wish sometimes I were oblivious to things. Like some friends of mine who can just be blissfully unaware of things that arn't directly affecting them, and only find out about it from other people. Then I'd have an excuse to ignore everything going on around me, and focus on my own problems, instead of being 'heartless'. (or would that be a problem)
And the sweetness will not be concerned with me.
Moca wrote @ 10:38 PM
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Sunday, March 25, 2007
A Pirate's Life for Me
I honestly cannot wait for school to start tomorrow.
Sometimes I wish all my problems were centered on one problem, that I could spend my time, no, devote all my time to correcting.
It's like... seeing the combo being pulled off perfectly in your head, but somehow it fails to translate into reality, and you screw the combo up giving your opponent an open invitation to kick you in the balls. (MvC2 metaphors ftw)
So many things to do, too much time.
Moca wrote @ 7:22 PM
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Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Complex
Complex numbers are about as complex as you want to make them.
Most things are, I think.
Thinking about the future always depresses me, for some reason. There are so many things i see myself doing, and perhaps actually enjoying. I guess this is where i should pray and ask for what God wants me to do, but then you'd miss out on all the fun of trying and failing. Fun, indeed.
So much i want to write now but i should probably go do maths. I wonder how i progressed from aiming for a pass to satisfy the teacher to actually aiming for a semi-decent grade. I guess with all the effort i've put in an E isn't enough. Then again, the 'hard work' is probably just all the small work crammed into the space of a week. Vectors in 4 days. Complex numbers in the last 2 hours. (Integration tmr anyone?)
I guess i learned something today. Something far more important than Maths or anything else (!!!). Somewhere along the line i started letting things/people affect what i wanted to do with my life. Time to end that. Nothing should stand in the way of what I want to do. Nothing.
With my current newfound inspiration and zeal i shall go learn some maths while it lasts.
Moca wrote @ 11:00 PM
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Monday, March 19, 2007
SoL
Is boring as hell.
My mom asked me to read some article in the newspapers about 'emo kids', who are described by one 'emo teen' as being 'tortured souls unable to face the world', which is a nice way of saying you have no balls. 'Emo teens' are also characterised by 'teens wearing dark T-shirts, .... [having] heavily lined-eyes and long fringe hair which covers half their face', ... and a common choice of shoes is Converse All-stars. There is also a danger of the fad, 'carried to extremes, can lead to self-mutilation or even suicidal thoughts' (lol @ Jishun!, and to a lesser degree, Rachel.)
Oh the funniest part was this. 'Another tell-tale sign - they listen to angst-filled music from bands like Hawthorne Heights, Aiden, The Used, My Chemical Romance, and Fall Out Boy' Haha. I think songs like Iris - Goo Goo Dolls (And i don't want the world to see me, 'cause i don't think that they'd understand) contain more angst-filled lyrics.
Oddly enough, there was no solid definition for the word 'emo' in the entire article.
... The main problem seems to be that these people somehow think that the whole world's against them, and resort to doing 'emo' activities, eg. self-mutilation, writing hate-filled poems (which probably don't really make much sense) etc. So is that a definition for 'emo'?
I listen to emo music. (and rap, hiphop, RnB, indie, metal etc.) Maybe it just happens sometimes to be actually nice. I don't really have a very good opinion of the world either. But fine, even if we all agreed that the world sucks, so what? There's nothing wrong with the 'emo' side, in that sense. I think we all have a part of us that feels that way, just that it comes out in varying degrees. The problem with these kids isn't the 'emo-ness', it's the fact that their whiny. Whiny babies.
Get a life please. Grow up, grow a pair, and face life. And maybe, just maybe, you might find something worth living for.
Now that's a Standard of Living.
Moca wrote @ 10:10 PM
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Friday, March 16, 2007
Productivity Increase
.... What in me is dark,
Illumine; what is low, raise and support;
That to the height of this great argument
I may assert eternal Providence,
And justify the ways of God to men.
~ Satan, Paradise Lost Book I Lines 22-26
I'm actually enjoying the book.
So in a zeal of mugging fervor i have spent my entire week so far out studying. Partially because the piling behind is making it annoying to stay at home, but hopefully more because i'm actually inclined to start doing work now. Despite that all I covered in 4 days was the entire topic of Vectors, which, while ownage on its own, is nowhere near enough to save my ass.
Still i have decided that i've been working wayy too hard and i'm going for an MvC2 tournament tomorrow.
After more mugging.
Moca wrote @ 11:31 PM
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Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Intro
It's all to common to see men answer, or try to answer questions that were meant only for God to respond to.
Anyway, my mom says i'm introverted. lol. I think she knows me better than i give her credit for. I still act that way when i'm around people who's company i'm not really enjoying. But it's starting to get rarer and rarer, mainly because i try to avoid people i don't like. haha. And when i say don't like i don't mean it in a vague sense of annoyance kind of way, i mean at least a rather strong dislike for that person, or what he does or represents, in general.
Wow i got annoyed just thinking of such people, like nobody in particular, just those that i dislike.
Moca wrote @ 11:01 AM
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Sunday, March 11, 2007
The History Boys
Quite possibly the best movie i've seen, like ever. For all those that love literature, history or british culture, go watch this.
I went for band concert last night, which was nice, mainly because i rarely get to listen to full symphonic band stuff, and while the quality may not have been top class, it was still enjoyable.
Everybody angsts. Haha. Whatever.
Moca wrote @ 12:24 AM
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Thursday, March 08, 2007
Bare Neccesities
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Look for the bare necessities
The simple bare necessities
Forget about your worries and your strife
I mean the bare necessities
Old Mother Nature's recipes
That brings the bare necessities of life
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The bare necessities of life will come to you
They'll come to you!
Look for the bare necessities
The simple bare necessities
Forget about your worries and your strife
I mean the bare necessities
That's why a bear can rest at ease
With just the bare necessities of life
...
nd don't spend your time lookin' around
For something you want that can't be found
When you find out you can live without it
And go along not thinkin' about it
I'll tell you something true
The bare necessities of life will come to you
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I watched the movie yesterday night. It's quite odd how Disney cartoons can make you laugh at this age, albeit probably not at the same things you used to laugh at back then. And the songs give different meanings as well. Disney people are actually geniuses.
Moca wrote @ 8:06 PM
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Sunday, March 04, 2007
Oh. My. God.
My family just loves to point out the futility of my life.
I originally wanted to rant on about all the things that I'm struggling with, but i'm not really thinking straight right now and i doubt anyone would understand why i feel this way.(after all, my family simply couldn't despite explaining it to them multiple times)
I want answers dammit.
Why did you create people in the first place. For your own amusement? I have to believe there's a reason why you got off your eternal contentment to create something that will cause you so much pain. Maybe all you wanted was to bask in your own glory or something. Like 'look i created something and they turned out well in the end. I'm good!' or something.
You created us all with a purpose, one that suits YOUR purpose. Coincidence? Why bother? If you created us with no restraints whatsoever, with an outcome that even you couldn't predict, then i'd concede that maybe there is a reason for this world. An experiment of yours, if you will. Who knows if we're the only one.
But why create puppets? Because that's how i see us. We have a predetermined purpose in life and so our destiny is already there. You're all powerful so there's no way we can outrun/escape this, one way or another we're going there. How is it called free will if you already know what we're going to choose, and where we're going to end up? Where's your fun in that? It's like watching a movie where the ending is so damned predictable. You want to know what happens along the way? All our struggles and sucesses, joys and sadness, all for your own amusement?
And most importantly, why do you create puppets that question you. Puppets that want so badly to break free from their strings, even though they know they're doomed to failure on their own. Or are they? Yea, you created them. They're nowhere near as good as you, and can never be. Even the angels wern't. The devil is not a counterpart for you, he's your creation after all as well. The fact that Satan still thinks he can be better than you is laughable, pitiful, even. And maybe this statement has so much dramatic irony laden in it, only you'd know. But yea, simply because they're nowhere as powerful as you doesn't mean they're useless.
The philosophy of your followers is such that your life should be complete once we dedicate ourselves wholly to you. That is our purpose in life. So many cliched stories echo through my mind of how 'I was once lost, but now am found', and 'knowing you has given my life purpose'. Yea, your purpose. Is that all i'm here for?
I don't want to think so. I think i have a choice of whether to obediently be your puppet, or rebel with futility, trying to do something on my own. Should I? Can I? You know, as always.
I'm nowhere near as good as you. I can't do a small fraction of the things you can. But if I could do something by myself, just some small thing. Anything. Even if you were behind it, i don't want to know. I need that feeling of having achieved something on my own.
Who'd know, that even in sin, i could be so original.
Edit : By the way i would appreciate it if nobody commented anonymously. If you have something to say be proud of it, if not don't speak at all.
Moca wrote @ 12:06 AM
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Thursday, March 01, 2007
Blinded In Chains
By Avenged Sevenfold. Damn i can't believe i missed out on such a nice song as this.
Oh and immense thanks to TKA Entertainment for opening an arcade at Bishan J8. My dream is fulfilled. -sighs-
I feel like going home before 230 tomorrow and only collecting my results like next monday or something. Haha.
Oh my God. Chinese. -panics-
I think if i fail it i'll stop all my screwing around and get down to work like, right that instant.
Moca wrote @ 8:53 PM
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