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Sunday, February 25, 2007
I don't even drink coffee
But I still feel that BB should've won best script. Oh well. I guess to the judges Benson's script owned because they were seeing it for the first time, but after 3 years of watching his plays i'm starting to find the theme a little old. Haha. I also could see why the judges thought MR should've won, but I sadly didn't think so. )=
I think i liked Wangting's script the best because it was the only one with a happy ending.
... Which leads one to wonder why teenagers these days are generally so emo.
(looks at previous posts). Oh yea.
Forced creativity is such a screwed up concept. But then again, sitting around and waiting for inspiration is complete bullshit, particularly when there are deadlines. When people generally interview artists of any sort on some masterpiece one of the first questions they'll ask will be what his/her inspiration for the piece was. And somehow i think people would disdain something an artist forced out. Like... 'it wasn't natural'. I used to, actually. But trying to produce something good is really taking its toll on me.
Rachel told me to stop avoiding her in school. I wonder if i can bring myself to.
Moca wrote @ 9:31 PM
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Thursday, February 22, 2007
I Hate Drawing
And painting, and sketching, and any kind of physical art in general. Because i can't do it. I'm not kidding. My artistic talents are so sad that if you gave me a piece of tracing paper and asked me to trace out a small picture of some comic book character, i really can't do it. Or gave me a colouring book and asked me to colour, i won't be able to colour within the lines.
Some excuse i guess i could give was that when i was young my parents always put a hell lot more emphasis on reading and music than on art. Like... art was the 'leisure' thing (haha) and music and reading were the character building things in life. ... I guess they were for me, in a sense.
Somebody told me recently that art was actually something that wasn't so much talent, but a hell lot of training put into it. I guess he was right, and so i wonder whether i cover my inability by saying i couldn't do it naturally, instead of it simply being because i never tried. Like what alot of people usually say when they give up/don't attempt stuff.
... I just effectively wasted an hour and thirty minutes. I was supposed to spend my after dinner time getting some serious work done (keep in mind that my definition of 'work' is somewhat different from the general standard) but i ended up talking to Rachel and Elizabeth instead. Okay fine so 'wasted' wasn't exactly a really good word to use, because both conversations were pretty meaningful. Except one has ended and the other still picking up, but they're both leaving me feeling really pissed off at myself. Again.
Sometimes, caring about things that doesn't concern you just tends to screw up your own life even more. Be. More. Selfish.
Moca wrote @ 9:21 PM
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Spirited Away
No i never watched the movie.
Lately i've been feeling as though my brain, consciousness, whatever has been like detached from my body. Like... i'm doing stuff i really shouldn't/don't want to be doing and even as i'm doing it the thought 'Omgwtf are you doing' is echoing through my head. And it's not even like it's anything morally wrong, just incredibly stupid.
I keep hitting deadends everytime i try to do things on my own. This is probably where i should probably seek God's help in what i try, but once more i'm too proud to accept that i can't do anything on my own. Just because God isn't with you doesn't mean He's against, you. Right?
Maybe i'm just not trying hard enough, because sometimes i'm just too lazy to start doing things. So then does the fault lie in me or do i have to ask God to help me to get off my ass and start doing things. Because that is so pathetic. And the fact that i'm blogging all this instead of actually doing something about it is also really pathetic.
It's amazing how I piss myself off.
Moca wrote @ 7:32 PM
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Friday, February 16, 2007
Sophistication in my life
is getting to be too much of a distraction from the thing(s) i really want.
Moca wrote @ 8:58 PM
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Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Speak of me as I am
I got back after the strenous soccer training (my feet are aching all over now) took a bath and went to my room to open the Valentine's Day present from the A01D girls. I read through the notes and, while looking for a place to keep them, opened my memoribilia drawer, where random stuff worth collecting are all kept.
I spent an hour or so sifting through old cards, photos (not very many. I only take photos in big groups), small mementos from friends and letters from various people. It was nice to reminisce about the past and stuff, something i rarely allow myself to do actually. Thinking too much about the past doesn't allow you to appreciate what you have in the present enough.
I wish somebody could do for me what Keith did for Lucas in OTH 4x10 or something... Like show him how the people around him would be affected if he hadn't been there and impacted their lives in some way, small or big, positive or negative. Sometimes i really do wonder whether the world would be a better place with or without me in it. People sometimes say life's more interesting with me around, but better?
I'm not really... depressed and worried about whether i'm making a positive difference in this world or not. Frankly i gave up worrying overly about what people think a long time ago, realising that my opinion should always be the only one that matters. And God, but divine beings don't count. This statement is going to seem ironic in the following paragraphs, but it still holds through. It's not really that i care very much and am intending to change my ways or anything, but it's just kinda interesting to know?
Or maybe it's just me, still wanting to know everything.
Which leads me to wonder how people see me, now. And if it's any different compared to the way they saw me 3 or so years ago. (I don't even want to talk about my existence before Sec3, honestly. It's like a part of me I'd much rather forget) I think some people (particularly those that don't know me all that well) would see me as a rather one-dimensional character. They may be right, but i'm inclined to think otherwise of myself. Not that i can blame them, their lack of interactions with me is probably due to a lack of amiability on my part sometimes. But sometimes i think it's kinda sad? It's probably the same the other way round. Sometimes being anti-social leads you to miss out on really cool characters, and even though i usually tend to gravitate to cool people (haha), with some you just really can't tell.
I think letters convey alot. When you write a serious letter you usually block out all external annoyances and let the words flow freely from the top of your head. Especially if it's an unstructured one, you tend to get rather... Pure thoughts. As in... unrefined for fear of embarassment. Sometimes, that is. Words usually pass through some light filtering machine in the minds of some, wondering how others would react to what they say. Can't say I don't, either. So re-reading all those letters just now gave me some insights into what these people were thinking when they wrote the letters, or more importantly what they were thinking of me.
What i'm going to ask next to those that come here is going to sound a little weird. Anytime any of you guys are free i'd like to ask you to write an email, or better yet a letter to me. I'd like to know what you all think of me, honestly. Kinda like a Friendster testimonial except you get to write bad things as well. Don't leave anything out, and extenuate nothing either. ... Haha. I don't really expect anybody to respond to this, so whatever does come will be really appreciated.
Moca wrote @ 8:11 PM
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Monday, February 12, 2007
Countdown : 2 Days
... Who gives a damn about Vday. Wednesday is the day the Blackheart movie sneaks! (With that... fiery motorcycle guy as a sub-character)
Moca wrote @ 10:38 PM
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Sunday, February 11, 2007
Valentine's Day is such an annoying concept
... Yea. I have no idea where the first picture of Cupid came from, but why the hell does it have to be a fat fugly baby holding a puny bow and arrow? If Cupid looked something more to the spectrum of Legolas or something it'd be hell lot cooler. Imagine that. Orlando Bloom with wings. *melts*
And flowers. Why flowers? (see potato post below)
Some people try to pretend that they're not caught up in the whole craze, and say things like 'oh it's just an excuse to go out etc.' You shouldn't even need a damn excuse.
One good thing though, is that RJ has this cool system where you can deliver gifts anonymously on Vday itself. Which presents endless opportunities to mess with people.
But ranting about Vday and the people who celebrate it is useless. Brilliant people will capitalise on the lemming-like behaviour of people. Like this guy i know who buys a few thousand roses for Vday and makes over a thousand bucks profit. That, is genius.
Moca wrote @ 12:49 AM
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Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Hyper Combo Finish!
Gotta love those words.
Won't really talk much about the performance yesterday, apart from allowing myself to wonder for awhile why everyone says we sounded okay even though i think my playing was incredibly crappy. Either they're being nice or i'm just too hard on myself. Riight.
Wow my day was full of individually minor but combined major annoyances. I'm just gonna list them down here in no particular order :
- We didn't get to play soccer for PE, except for a small match in the last five minutes. Instead we played 3v2 situations in order to... learn how to get into attacking positions etc.
- Walked into the mini-canteen and found it was surprisingly empty during lunch time, apart from one table of J1s. Soon found out that that whole table was singing Westlife songs at the top of their voices, which explained the lack of an audience. My ears still hurt.
- Was happily walking out of school when I got a call by my form teacher to resubmit my proposal form because i left out the date on the soft copy. -.- Climbed all the way to the forth floor computer lab to resubmit, then repeatedly called Brooke to get hers done as well, except for some reason certain people were unable to communicate the urgency of the matter, resulting in me having to walk down to LT3 and call her out myself.
- Just missed 93 and had to wait another half an hour as a result.
- My comp's graphics card is screwing up, again.
- The piling going on behind my house is causing a hell lot of noise that even Linkin Park can't fight against, and is also actually shaking my floor. Seriously my table's vibrating slightly as i'm typing.
On a slightly random note, i realise i really really like my keyboard. Seriously, it's one of the nicest keyboards to type on. It even has a knob for quick volume control, a small panel that can control my media players (play/pause/stop etc.), and hotkeys for firefox and comp search. Ownz.
Moca wrote @ 4:22 PM
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Tuesday, February 06, 2007
6 AM posts are actually really fun
Wow i woke up this morning and i immediately felt this strong sense of annoyance. At like everything in general. I felt like shouting at my maid when she woke me up earlier than i had to but in the end i just got up :D. Unlike some people, i actually do like my maid, potatoes and all. And i left my comp on all night to let some downloads go but i only suceeded in downloading 30mins worth of porn instead of my mvc2 videos. Bloody hell. (No it's not really a good thing.)
School now, Jishun's performance at night (by the time he reads this the surprise would have been revealed anyway) but i feel like calling in sick again. The last time i didn't go to school nobody in my family realised i was still at home anyway, should try it again sometime.
Haha i realise my classmates give me alot of unnecessary stress.
Moca wrote @ 6:39 AM
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Sunday, February 04, 2007
And I knew that you meant it
I am very proud to declare that I HAVE COMPLETED BOTH MY H3 LIT AND KI IS PROPOSALS. This was in about 3 to 4 hours or so of hard work this morning. Nevermind that I have an econs test to study for tomorrow, and a tutorial i promised the maths teacher'd be done. Right now i feel really accomplished.
Oh Rachel Jishun and I had a performance in school yesterday for some disabled people (physically). It was... pretty okay, except that i had to play on a damned keyboard. Which kept shaking while i was playing. Which of course, led to crappy playing (by my standards, everyone else still said it was okay -.-) We've got 2 more upcoming gigs so hopefully our standard will increase by then. On a seperate slightly random note i would really like to say how much i love my band. And it's pianist, especially.
Damn i feel ownage now. Despite my gaming reaching shockingly low points over the weekend, my academic and musical talents have taken a step forward, so i can at least take comfort, no pride, in that.
It is taking me alot of self-control not to gloat at those that have procrastinated with their KI IS and are struggling through it now.
Moca wrote @ 10:37 PM
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