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Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Dis-abled
I was suddenly struck by some overwhelming feeling of... something. I think i mentioned once a long time ago how things were slightly slipping out of control and it was annoying me. Right now it seems that everything i thought i had some leverage over has broken loose, like... i'm unable to hold steady anything i once could, or thought i could.
I need someone like myself to tell me to stop wallowing in self-pity and move on. It's just that for once i'm unable to really figure out what's causing this, and have no idea to correct it. Sure i can correct the individual things that i'm losing control over, but until i figure out the root cause i don't think this... loss of control over simple things is going to stop.
I guess this is where most people who believe in God will acknoledge that they can't do anything on their own, and put everything in His hands and trust in him to deliver them etc.
I... can't. Pride is probably the thing in the way. If i'm going to get out of this i want to, no i need to do it myself. I can't remember where i got the quote 'God shouldn't be used as a crutch'.
Guess it's time to break a leg.
Moca wrote @ 11:09 PM
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Tuesday, January 30, 2007
I hate missing stuff.
In all possible ways.
Moca wrote @ 5:09 PM
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Thursday, January 25, 2007
From Bash.org :
IronChef Foicite: well, there's a lot of reasons
IronChef Foicite: i mean, roses only last like a couple weeks
IronChef Foicite: and that's if you leave them in water
IronChef Foicite: and they really only exist to be pretty
IronChef Foicite: so that's like saying
IronChef Foicite: "my love for you is transitory and based solely on your appearance"
IronChef Foicite: but a potato!
IronChef Foicite: potatos last for fucking ever, man
IronChef Foicite: in fact, not only will they not rot, they actually grow shit even if you just leave them in the sack
IronChef Foicite: that part alone makes it a good symbol
IronChef Foicite: but there's more!
IronChef Foicite: there are so many ways to enjoy a potato! you can even make a battery with it!
IronChef Foicite: and that's like saying "i have many ways in which I show my love for you"
IronChef Foicite: and potatos may be ugly, but they're still awesome
IronChef Foicite: so that's like saying "it doesn't matter at all what you look like, I'll still love you"
I am so getting Elizabeth one for Vday.
Moca wrote @ 10:22 PM
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Tuesday, January 23, 2007
What i don't go to school for
I'm listening to Radiohead's Creep now, which kinda sets a very appropriate mood. I am actually sick, but it's not the real reason why i didn't go to school today. I think i decided not to go today to take a step back and just look at what's going on in my life this year. Guess it started out okay, but within a few weeks it sorta degenerated. Below is a list of the stuff that's been bothering me over the last few weeks everytime i step into RJC.
- I shouldn't go to school and have to worry about birthday celebrations, class politics and various 'emo' situations going on with other people. I won't go into any specifics because it's not that i really have anything against all of this, it's just that it's not something i want a part of in school.
- I shouldn't go to school and have to worry about keeping the faith.
- I shouldn't go to school and have to worry about people that don't concern me, such as the J1s. I made a very big mistake yesterday and the week before attending the Raffles Rock auditions, and while I got to listen to nice music sometimes, more often than not it was total crap. Not to mention having to sit through long drawn out meetings involving people with the attention span of flies.
- I shouldn't go to school and have to worry about money. Everybody should be able to live on a $4-5/day allowance, because that is all you SHOULD ever need. Money is something the grown-ups worry about, not us.
- I shouldn't go to school and have to worry about families. Not mine specifically, but those of people near me.
- I shouldn't go to school and have to worry about friends that are drifting away, becoming different people than when i first met them, or going into other social groups and not bothering to keep in contact. They arn't really worth it, honestly. Need to keep reminding myself that, though.
- I shouldn't go to school and have to worry about things/events simply because i'm put in a position to. For this year i vow not to become involved in anything major that doesn't involve music (my music), literature or gaming.
Put simply, I feel i'm not selfish enough. (o.O) I don't mean that in a 'Ha! all the cookies are mine!' kind of way, but i think i should start putting my own interests, and the interests of those closer to me, like my family and my girl, first. This actually shouldn't change the way i act in any way, but more the way i think. I only know of 2 groups of people that come here, so i'll just disclaimer them seperately.
4I : ... Actually there's no need to disclaimer you people. This shouldn't be anything new to y'all.
A01D : Apologies if this offends any of you guys in any way. Carry on the way you always have, it's nice to see such enthusiasm in so many things. It's simply a little too much for me though.
Elizabeth : (Nice try, other readers)
Moca wrote @ 10:54 AM
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Monday, January 22, 2007
Academia
Wow my internet speed is faster than ever at 6 in the morning.
I couldn't sleep most of last night. Was kept awake by fears of alot of things undone. Most people see giant piles of homework and panic, but usually i'm capable of ignoring them and finishing the jobs one by one, not feeling a single bit of pressure the whole time. Somehow last night because of a basic inability to DO anything at that point in time, everything just seemed to stack up in my mind and caused... I dunno, it wasn't really panic, more of like 'ooh that's alot of shit. I'm screwed'.
That being said the feeling's gone now, though i do have to finish both maths and econs tutorials before their respective first and third periods today.
And erm... i have no idea why i'm blogging at 6plus.
Moca wrote @ 6:41 AM
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Sunday, January 21, 2007
Rejuv
I keep forgetting that i have a blog.
I realised that my mood/energy is becoming dependant on my gaming. If i get good games i tend to have more energy for the day, but if i play crappily i end up feeling really drained. For some reason everyone's been kinda short this whole week, (for some shorter than usual), and going back home late at night etc. I think my average 'come home time' this week was like 10-11pm? But thanks to a couple of good games on thursday and friday at the arcade i was refreshed enough to go for Weiren's double birthdays.
I feel like playing mahjong now but i have to wait for my brother to finish his homework so we have 4 people. I need more mahjong khakis. (however you spell it)
Moca wrote @ 1:32 PM
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Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Black Adder
I've been watching a little of it over the last few days and i have never laughed so much at a comedy in my life. Seriously it's one of the most hilarious shows i've ever seen. If you're able to get your hands on it watch it!
For some reason i'm feeling rather tired this week. Which could be partially due to lack of sleep since the holiday ended + h3 lit/KI IS + other things that have been stressing me out over the last week or so. Haha. My pimples do tend to come out when i'm more stressed. I suppose there's some bio-chemical explanation, but it's still pretty cool to a non-scientific mind.
I ran during PE today and my back aches like some bitch now. So much for maintaining fitness without exercise.
Moca wrote @ 11:35 PM
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Monday, January 15, 2007
My HTML Skillz remain as l337
Lol. I couldn't be bothered to change the colour scheme, and i've deleted all the extra unnecessary information about myself so i can make elitist statements without fear of repercussion now. I think. Whatever. I think i only did this out of peer pressure, haha. Like, more because everyone but me has a blog.
A level year = more discipline in my life. Roar.
Moca wrote @ 9:26 PM
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